I can’t keep my head on straight these days. My mind is all over the place. Even with bumping therapy up to two times a month, and staying on top of my medication, I feel like I can’t keep my emotions and thoughts in check. Here is a list of things I was thinking about within a five-minute span of time this morning while I was “relaxing” and drinking my coffee:
- The yard needs mowed
- Call the hot tub guy about the new cover that is coming
- Which dog pooped in the hallway?
- Is it okay to let Jackson (my 11YO) study criminal justice when he’s in college?
- Who was the guy the neighbors had to call the cops on last night?
- Our governor is a nutcase
- Did I register to vote absentee?
- I’m glad my husband fixed the hydraulics in my office chair
- I need to bathe the dogs today
- When will it be safe to leave my house? May 30th?
- There were 500 more positive tests over night here
- Masks came in the mail!
- Thank-you cards need to go out
- Jerimiah ordered me new headphones
- We need to legalize weed, and let people out of prison ASAP
- Adele is so great
- My hands are sweaty, but my feet are cold
- Is it going to rain today?
- Why can’t I write?!
- How often do normal people poop?
- Robin Williams was awesome
- I’m gonna drink some wine tonight
- I’ve been drinking too much wine
- I need to organize my office
- How much Tylenol is too much Tylenol?
- Senior Citizens in nursing homes should be locked down
- I hope we can still manage a “Fifth Grade Fun Day!” this summer
- I need to start the Couch to 5K
- What was that book I wanted to read?
- I should text my friends and say hi
- I missed that voting thing with Michelle Obama, I’m a loser, Michelle was counting on me
- I wish I had a backpack leaf blower
- What happened to Ben Folds?
That is a snippet of what I was thinking about. I couldn’t write the exhaustive list.
What is going on you guys? What is keeping your mind racing? Are you able to combat that feeling? What is working? What is not? What have you tried? What are you excited about trying?
Some of you may remember, from my earlier days, that I did a regular little ditty called, Thoughts in the Car Line wherein I waxed intellectual on a number of topics while I waited to pick Jackson up from school. At the beginning of my years in the car line I was always very early so I could be up near the front, which is in fact, a total waste of time. BUT, I did get a lot of writing and reading done in those times, and they will always be fond memories for me. Still confused? Let me show you a bit of what I mean with some classic Thoughts in the Car Line Moments:
- I think Jon Bon Jovi lived on more than a prayer. Cocaine, y’all. He lived on cocaine.
- I bet I’d run more efficiently on cocaine.
- We’d all run more efficiently on cocaine.
- I’m not sure if the family behind me doesn’t enjoy my dancing or if they just hate Dwight Yoakam in general.
- There are men out here “surveying”. I keep yelling, “Hey, why don’t y’all come survey this” and then I pull my shirt down really low, but they just don’t seem interested. It must be the sports bra.
- This guy looks like he might be named Eddie.
- Maybe I shouldn’t harass men?
- I dunno. I’m so conflicted y’all. It’s like, cocaine is bad, but then it’s good.
- What if Mumford doesn’t even have any sons and it’s all a damn lie?
- I used to like Eddie Murphy. I thought he made a great donkey, but then he got all high and mighty and I was kind of like, you know what Eddie Murphy, I’m done with you. But I still like Donkey.
- Butyraceous: Of the nature of resembling or containing butter. New stage name. Missy “Butyraceous” Goodnight. One woman act. I roll in butter while I scream “Suck it, Paula Dean!” Tickets can be purchased at Food Lion for $5 and one pound of butter.
- I’m not a scientist, but I feel what I lack in common sense I make up for by drinking copious amounts of wine.
- “I have a dancer’s body. In the trunk.” That would be a good bumper sticker.
- Some parents suck. Some are great. And some listen to Rod Stewart.
- It snowed in North Carolina the other day and my mom called from Kansas to tell me that she saw Dale Earnhardt and he said not to drive on the roads, and I didn’t know if she meant that she saw the ghost of Dale Earnhardt or if she ran into Jr. at the Walmarts and he told her to tell me that the roads in North Carolina were bad, but I decided it could go either way, and everyone knows you should always trust a ghost who wants to share traffic advisories.
- How many raisins can I fit into my mouth?
- 32. I fit 32 raisins in my mouth.
- I ate Jackson’s snack. It was raisins.
- If you’ve never bought a comforter from TJ Maxx are you even an adult?
As you can see, they get pretty intense. Luckily for you guys, I got to Jackson’s school a bit early to pick him up from Robotics practice the other day, and I created a new list of thoughts in the car line. No need to thank me, your kindness to each other is thanks enough.
Thoughts in the Car Line:
- Does Santa drink egg nog every morning? Like does he just get up and dab a little bit in his coffee, then think, you know what I’m just gonna take a little sip straight out the bottle, then he takes a little nip and before he knows it he drank a bottle of egg nog? Then an hour later, when he’s laying over the toilet feeling like he bout to vomit, Mrs. Clause walks in and she’s all, “Sonofabitch, Kris, I told you not to drink a whole bottle of egg nog again. Christ, you need to be at the shop in a tight fifteen!” And he can’t look up from the commode, so he just makes little noises to himself and his white hair starts to fall from around his face, kinda dip into the water a little bit. Then she starts to get all sad that he lacks willpower and self-control, so she sits on her old, creaky knees on the heated bathroom tile next to him, and starts to rub his back in a half-hearted attempt to burp him, while he cries into the toilet bowl, and she remembers the man in college named Damien Demancus who offered her a life of luxury on his boat docked at the Margaritaville in Key West, and she sighs a little to herself. Is that, umm, probably what happens?
- I’ve never been to Key West. I want to go, but I’m also scared to go. Cause I have been to Miami. And I have been to the Bahamas. And I sort of feel like Key West is a mixture of the two places. And I didn’t like either of them THAT much. So…
- I think I just tooted, but like inside my intestines. That was weird.
- There’s a Margarittaville in Tennessee. It’s over yonder by the Dollywood. I’m sure there is more than one Margarittaville in Tennessee. I just haven’t seen them all. But there are people who have. And those people are named Ricky. Not Richard. Ricky.
- Do elves brush their teeth? All that sugar! I hope so.
- One time on a cruise ship, we were at sea for two days because we were going from Puerto Rico to some island way the fuck out there and I had nothing to do so I went to the casino and taught myself how to play roulette. Then I taught Jackson how to play. He was in second grade. Rules are lax in the ocean. We won $700. Then we lost $900. Then I got pissed off, cause I was obviously drunk, and I threw my gin and tonic at Red #32 because I thought it was evil. But I think Jackson learned a valuable lesson: Always go find Daddy when Mommy forces him into a casino in second grade.
- “We can’t go on together, with suspicious miiiiiinds…”
- I wonder if they’d let me into Tyler Perry Studios? Worth a shot. Helllller!
- Do I need to make banners for the robotics competition? And bring a megaphone? Or is it not that kinda deal? What about a charcuterie board? There’s always time for a charcuterie board.
- Jackson can now play Jingle Bells on his trumpet. But I can play Mary Had a Little Lamb on a touchtone phone, so, who’s the real musician?