My Mental health NP tells me that I need sunlight. She wants me to get a UV lamp for my desk. She says about 10,000 Lux will work. Referencing a study done by the Mayo Clinic, she informs me of the benefits of Light Therapy—in connection with Seasonal Affected Disorder—of which she piles on top of my other diagnoses. She tells me how Light Therapy can help, how the side effects are low. How it’s about intensity, duration, and timing. I smile politely and assure her that I am getting enough sunlight. She asks how I can be sure of that this time of year? I interject, “My soul is filled with light, Suzan.” She writes me a script for more Klonopin.

Hang in there, y’all. The sun will be back shortly.

M.